Yogini Mata :: Yoga Mother :: Many Meanings
I believe a fundamental part of self discovery & healing is exploring the meaning of the word “mother” in the personal lexicon. In sanskrit, the word “mata” means mother. Mother is a word that has numerous meanings and connotations. It is a word that may be cherished, adored or contended with but is rarely a word that invokes a sense of indifference. We all have feelings about Mother.
What is your relationship to the word Mother? To your mother? As a mother or father? To mother earth? To other sources of love and nourishment?
As someone may have suggested to you at some time, perhaps in your weekly yoga class, there is an abundant well of energy with in you and all around you- there is not doubt about it. I believe tapping into this energy begins with knowing you deserve to be nourished, filled with love, joy and intuition- the qualities a mother gives to her child. Having a challenging relationship with my own mother as a child, I’ve struggled with believing I’m worthy of being nurtured and cared for. That struggle has made it difficult to not only receive love from others, but also acted as a obstacle in loving and caring for myself. I know many woman, many of my friends, students and teachers experience a similar struggle. As yogis and yoginis we must heal. We must. If we don’t heal, all the energy in the universe may be at our feet and if we can touch it, take it in and hold it in our arms, heart and mind, what good is all that energy anyway?
What I suggest you do, a practice that has opened my heart and ability to love myself and receive love, is to practice self care and self appreciation so you can learn to use the abundance of energy with in you and around you to do great things… Or mundane things that make you happy and whole. Self care practices have become particularly important to me as a new mom. I know I have to love myself and care for myself so I can love my most beloved wholeheartedly. I know he deserves that. To begin the Yogini Mata practice, care for yourself. Below is a ritual I offer to you. Make it your own. Many more suggestions of self care will be offered in the Yogini Mata Blog.
Warming the heart. A traditional Ayurvedic practice I learned from Swamini Mayatitanda (Mother Maya) of the Wise Earth School. Place both hands over your heart, on the left/middle part of your chest. Feel your life pulse, your life energy, your prana. Feel the beat of your heart in your hands and the warmth of your hands on your heart. Make a loving statement towards your self acknowledging your worth and beauty. With loving pressure make gentle circular movements over the heart. The skin will move over the muscle tissue, the muscle will massage the bone. The bone will absorb warmth that will infuse the heart with warmth. 300 circles. With loving intentions. Warm your heart and increase heart energy. Before yoga practice. After yoga practice. When you are feeling alone, scared, vulnerable or tired. A simple self-love hug you can practice many times a day, virtually anywhere. If someone gives you a funny look while you are warming your heart, invite them to join you or quietly send love and compassion to them. You always have choices.